Relationships With Endo

Relationships with Endo are so hard. I have ruined several relationships because of my Endo. The worst part is, it isn't even the person, it is the chronic disease that makes you want to stay in bed all day.  It does not matter if it is a friendship or a romantic relationship, they can both be ruined because of Endo.  Like I said in my last post, women with Endo do not want to burden other people with their pain.  I know personally, whenever I see my friends and family, I always have a smile on my face even though I might not feel like smiling on the inside. Both friendships and romantic relationships take work, and with Endo, a lot of the time we do not have enough energy to even leave the house. What I have learned over the past year and a half is that, with Endo you realize what relationships are most important to you.  Since we have a lot less energy then the normal person, we are not going to waste our time on relationships that are not going anywhere.  I know I am only a teenager and haven't experienced a lot of relationships, but I have experienced enough to know that if you want to keep a relationship alive with Endo that it takes extra week.  If that person or people mean that much to you, then you will make it a priority to get out of bed and see them that day. It is also important to tell the people you are close to about your Endo so they know you are not just blowing them off. I know more than anyone that they most likely will not understand, but at least they know.  I very strongly encourage you to talk to the people close to you and not make the same mistakes I did.  Thank you for reading, stayed tuned for my next post, and remember, Endo is NOT the end!

Girl, Take Off That Mask!

How do you tell if someone has Endo by just looking at them? The answer to that question is you most likely can’t.  Women who suffer from Endo “put on a mask” so we don’t burden the people around us with our pain.  Also, not a lot of people are informed about this awful disease so how are they supposed to know how we are feeling.  I want to be able to take off that mask whenever it is possible.  I have friends and family that care about me and care how I feel.  Bottling up your emotions just makes everything worse.  Take it from me who has done it for so long.  I can go to school one day in so much pain, but my friends will never know because I have that mask on showing that I am fine.  If you show your emotions, the people that are close to you will want to help and do as much as they can to make you feel better.  I challenge all the Endo sufferers reading this to find that one person you know you can always count on to talk to.  It is so important to take off that mask.  You aren’t hurting anyone but yourself with that mask still on. So please, I encourage everyone suffering from Endo to take of that mask, including myself, and show people our emotions.  Thank you for reading and remember, Endo is not the end!

"Endo What?" Movie

One day, a few weeks ago, I was in so much pain and was feeling very trapped.  I could not even move and I felt like my parents did not understand me at all.  It makes me so upset when I am the only person around me who understands my pain.  I just did not know what to do anymore.  Finally, I asked around and someone recommended that I watch this movie called “Endo What?” with my parents.  I think it really helped them to understand more about what I go through every day.  It is so hard for people without Endo to know how we feel since we tend to mask our pain.  It is even hard for other people with Endo to understand since we all have different pain.  This movie really helped me to see how other people feel and it made me feel not so alone.  Many women share their stories and it is so easy to relate to.  I one hundred percent recommend this movie to anyone who is feeling alone. This movie in linked at the bottom of this page and I really recommend checking it out. Thank you for reading!