Endo Is Not The End
This blog is mainly for people suffering from Endometriosis, but anyone is welcome to read it if you would like to become better educated! My goal is to spread more awareness about Endometriosis because it is known as "the most common disease you've never heard of." Help me out by reading my blog and letting me know what you think!
Friday, March 25, 2022
It's Been a Hard Month...
Thursday, February 24, 2022
MY SIX YEAR ENDOVERSARY
I say this every year, but I can't believe today marks six years since I was diagnosed with endometriosis! It feels like yesterday, but a lifetime ago at the same time. I was getting a little teary-eyed this morning thinking about how far I've come during these last six years. I went from being in debilitating pain and not being able to get out of bed as a 14-year-old freshman in high school to a 20-year-old college junior who is chasing her dreams. My 14-year-old self pre-diagnosis didn't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I thought that I would always be in intense pain because no medical professional would believe my pain. Fast forward to the present day, I am still singing, have a crazy busy schedule with all my clubs and activities, and I'm doing an internship full-time that I love. I have found a way to manage my pain the best I can through a combination of medication and pelvic floor physical therapy. A lot of people in the chronic illness world like to push either just medication or just holistic forms of treatment, but I believe every single body is different. It's often a combination of the two that work together to help people.
For years I was only using medication to manage my pain which has been so helpful, but re-starting pelvic floor physical therapy has made all the difference for me. I would say this past year has been the best for me pain-wise. My bad days are far less frequent and I have become very good at pinpointing what is causing my pain and making the proper changes to fix it. Each year I try to learn more and more about my body and why it works the way it does. Able-bodied people don't have to worry about every piece of food they put in their body, every step they take so they don't throw their body out of alignment, or worry about having to cancel plans because they're in so much pain. And yes, that is very frustrating at points, but I'm willing to do all those things to help my body be the best it can be.
I wanted to share a little update on my health recently. I've been a little frustrated because I have been dealing with incontinence over the last week or so which is something I've never experienced before. It's hard having no control over what your body does, but I have faith that this is just a phase and my body will get back to its normal soon. Other than that, my endo pain hasn't been around as much which is so nice. I'm still dealing with my injured tailbone, but the pain is so much better than it was before. I even met a new friend with endometriosis here at school and we've started talking! It's so nice to have someone who knows exactly what I'm going through in my everyday life!
I'm so proud of myself and what my body has been able to do for me over the last six years. There are many times that I get angry at my body because I feel like it's failing me, but I try to remind myself that it is first and foremost my home, it has stuck with me for twenty years, and it's not going anywhere any time soon. Thank you for coming on this journey with me over the last six years and I look forward to sharing more of my journey with you as time goes on!
Saturday, February 12, 2022
Prioritizing Friends in College (while having a chronic illness)
I'm happy to report to you that since the last time we spoke, I am doing much better! I have been back on the daily grind of doing my internship, leading my clubs, singing, and spending time with friends. As my college experience is wrapping up shortly (I have less than 3 semesters left, so crazy!), I have made sure I am prioritizing my friendships here more than I ever have. Whether it's sacrificing a few hours of sleep or simply doing homework silently, but in the presence of each other, it's so important to create those bonds. These are the people that always support me when I'm not feeling well and have fun with me when I am. They often have to drag me out of my bed, but I'm always happy they do. Some of my friends and I are even going on a trip in a few weeks which is something I never would have thought of doing a few years ago when my pain was really bad. I want to share some of the things I try to remind myself of when I'm feeling guilty about having fun (even though it's ALWAYS okay to have fun:)
- It's okay to lose a few hours of sleep if you're busy having fun and making memories with your friends!
- I may not be feeling my best right now, but I know I'll be having fun once I'm with my friends!
- College is the time in your life to be prioritizing friendships before you're all off in different places!
- It's okay to count spending time together as just being in the same room- you don't need to always be doing something crazy and high energy!
- It's OKAY to say yes more to things that aren't school and work-related!!!!!! (I'm definitely still learning this one)
Saturday, January 29, 2022
I'M IMMUNOCOMPROMISED AND GOT COVID
Saturday, December 18, 2021
End of Semester Update!
I'm back everyone and I apologize for my absence this past semester! I think it has been a crazy time for most people, especially those who are back to school and work after being at home for so long. Since my college required COVID vaccines, masks indoors, and weekly tests, we were able to get mostly back to normal, which means I was very busy. I was taking some hard classes, I was a student leader in four different groups, and I continued my summer internship into the fall. I'm not complaining though, because like I've said before, I actually really enjoy being busy because it takes my mind off of my endometriosis and other health problems. Now that COVID is ramping up again with the new variant, I'm very happy to be safe at home, fully vaccinated, and boosted.
A lot of exciting things happened for me this semester! The most exciting is that I was accepted into an internship program at my school that is going to allow me to intern full-time in Boston during the Spring semester for school credit rather than taking classes. I always wanted to do this internship program in Washington D.C. as I am a political science major, but when it came time to apply, I realized that I haven't had a normal year of college yet and I don't want to leave campus for a whole semester. The Boston program allows me to live on campus and still participate in all my extracurricular activities while getting to commute into Boston during the day and get that real-world experience. After I was accepted into that program, I had to apply for internships. This process takes a lot of time from searching to applying to interviewing. I was lucky enough to get a few offers and I accepted an internship that I'm super excited about and I think is going to give me the clarity I need moving forward with my career.
I did work full-time during the summer, but that work was mostly remote. Commuting into a big city every day is going to be a whole new experience and I will definitely share my experience here will all of you. I am definitely nervous about how this internship is going to affect my endometriosis pain. Anxious nerves and stress often cause flare-ups of my pain. Over the summer if that happened, I could just take a quick break to lay in my bed, however, I won't be able to do that this time around. Although don't get me wrong, I am very happy and grateful that this experience will be in-person after experiencing the pandemic for almost two years. I'm sure a lot of you reading this have full-time and in-person jobs, so I'm very curious, how do you handle your pain?
I have been lucky this semester that my endometriosis pain has been mostly manageable! I had a few flare-ups here and there, but they didn't last very long. The combination of medication and pelvic floor physical therapy has really worked for me and I'm so thankful! A lot of chronically ill people are strong proponents of either full-on western medicine or other less common routes. I think it's different for every person because each body is different, but I've experienced the best results when both methods are combined. What works the best for you? What I've still been struggling the most with is my tailbone pain. It's been about 1.5 years since it's started, but I'm happy to report it is getting better with the help of pelvic floor physical therapy! Hopefully being able to go to PT consistently over the break will be the push my tailbone needs to fully heal.
I feel like I've been rambling a lot, so I'm going to end this post here. Now that I'm going to be on winter break for about a month, I'm going to be posting on here more and I've been posting on my Instagram pretty frequently (@endoisnottheendblog). I hope you all are happy and healthy and are enjoying the holiday season with loved ones!
Sunday, October 24, 2021
ORGANIZATIONAL TIPS!
This doesn't have much to do with chronic illness, but I want to share my organizational tips with you today. However, these methods help me to have everything prepared in case I'm having a bad pain day or I'm just plain tired (which is a lot of the time). Let's get started:
- GET A TO DO LIST: This will literally save your life. I don't know how I got anything done before I had one.
- SET OUT EVERYTHING THE NIGHT BEFORE: I try to get my outfits set out and my backpack packed up the night before in case I need to take it slow in the morning.
- USE A PLANNER: This will be your best friend if you're busy like me. Especially if you're a student, it's the best have all your assignments and activities in one place.
- PLAN OUT TIME IN THE DAY TO DO SELF CARE: For me, this means setting aside time to do all the activities from my pelvic floor physical therapy because I know they always help me feel better. It can be different for every person though!
- CREATE FOLDERS IN YOUR EMAIL: This is something I didn't think I needed to do for the longest time, but once I did, it made finding old emails soooo much easier.
- CREATE FOLDERS IN YOUR FILES: Similarly, this is so helpful and I have folders for literally the smallest things. When you're constantly turning in assignments, it's so helpful.
- ORGANIZE YOUR DESK: Having an organized workplace really does make you more productive and efficient.
- HAVE A CLEAN ROOM: I know this sounds weird, but especially if you're working in the same place as you sleep, I find it so important to my productivity to have a clean room and made bed. If I don't, it just stresses me out and I'm not as focused on my work.
Sunday, September 26, 2021
Back to School with a Chronic Illness- Tips
It's that time of year again when all of us students are getting in the swing of school. I know I certainly am. I know better than most people how hard going back to school with a chronic illness is, so today I wanted to share the tips I've developed over the last five or so years of going back to school with a chronic illness.
On good days, try to get a lot of work done so you have more time to relax on bad days- I always try to get ahead on good days because I know there's eventually going to be a bad day where I'm not going to want to do any schoolwork
See if you can get accommodations through your school- especially if you're in college, I've found this to be incredibly helpful with living and diet accommodations
Dress as comfortable as possible to make it through class- no one's really paying attention to you that much to care what you're wearing (and if they are they need to get a life)
Always have pain relievers with you on the go- whether it's ibuprofen, icey hot packs, or a Tens Unit, I suggest keeping it in your backpack with you at all times in case you start having a flare-up
Let your teachers/professors know what's going on if need be- I have found all my teachers/professors to be extremely understanding when I'm having a hard time (but they can't give you any help if you don't ask)
Get involved in clubs and activities- this has honestly been my saving grace since I was diagnosed with endo! Like I've said previously, being busy is a pain management strategy for me because I don't have a lot of time to think about how I'm in pain. When I don't have anything to do is when I feel the worst.
But also know your limits- don't completely overschedule yourself so that you never have time to relax because that won't be helpful to your mental or physical health
Lastly, your health comes first- If you really can't make it to class one day because your pain is too bad, then don't go because you could risk making everything worse. Luckily online class has become very popular, so try and see if that's an option, or just get notes from a classmate. It's really not the end of the world (just don't get into a habit of missing constantly)
I hope all of you who are in school are having a great start to the school year and it has been pain-free so far! If you ever need any advice, remember my DMs are always open :)
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