Friday, February 24, 2017

One Year...

The date February 24, 2016 is a day that I will never forget. It was the day I got my Endo surgery. It was exactly one year ago from today. I can't believe a whole year has passed! At this time last year the amazing doctors at Boston Children's Hospital were performing my surgery. This year I have had a significant less amount of pain than I did last year. I do have my flare ups at time, but overall, getting that surgery was the best decision I have ever made. I haven't had to be miserable everyday like I was last year.  I remember walking into that hospital last year being so nervous and hoping that the surgery would actually help me. I thought I would go through the whole process with no outcome. Luckily, I was wrong.  I started seeing results about three days after the surgery when I was starting to heal. I would recommend this surgery to absolutely every woman with Endometriosis (you can see my post about the surgery process for more information).  In reflecting on this past year, I have realized that I have been very lucky pain wise. Like I said before, I have bad flare ups at points, but those are nothing compared to the stabbing pain I was feeling every single day in 2015. Now, it has turned to a dull ache that I have everyday. It's manageable. That is all I'm looking for. I have learned that I will have to deal with this for the rest of my life. I find ways to push through the hard days like surrounding myself with people who love and support me. I know they won't see this, but I would like to thank my world renowned doctors at Boston Children's Hospital for helping me through this tough time. I will never forget the day February 24, 2016.

Thursday, February 16, 2017

Endo and Life Update

Sorry I have been away for a while, but it has been a busy time for me so today I am going to be giving you all a little life update.  Tomorrow my high school drama production opens and of course, my friend randomly showed up two days ago.  I have not had a lot of pain for a while so this was a surprise to me. So here is a little story for you all.  I walked on stage two days ago during the run of our show and all of a sudden a wave of awful pain came over me.  I didn't know what to do because we were already half way through the scene.  I decided to keep going and then do the dance to the song that followed the scene. (This was not the best decision on my part).  After the song was over, I got of the stage as fast as I could and fell on the ground because I couldn't make it any further. I felt like my legs were going to give out under me. So, I had to lay there, on the ground, for the rest of the night since I could barely move. Thanks to my amazing friends who stayed by my side the whole night, I was able to cope until we got to go home.  I don't know what I would have done without them.  When you can't do something you love because of the amount of pain you are in, that is the worst feeling in the whole world.  During that night, all I wanted to go was get back on that stage and finish the show with my cast but I couldn't, no matter how hard I tried.  Yesterday and today have been rough as well.  I tried so hard to do all the dances last night, but I was just in too much pain. Today we had a snow day and I've been resting a lot so hopefully I will be better to perform tomorrow.  But what I have learned through this week is that, when life throws an obstacle your way, you just have to do the best you can to just keep going. I know that tomorrow I will be as well as I can be to perform. I just have to keep telling myself that Endo is NOT the end!